not the end...
my hobby of cooking has taken a leap, and now i experiment with something new every weekend.
catch all of it on http://cookingcronicles.blogspot.com/
generating amid the most irrelevant things, thoughts never stop in the mind, frequency however may vary greatly at times.... from Harward law review to a Dior cape in a never sleeping city of Moscow (as claimed by National Geographic magazine) to Zephyretta...Indian rock... n what madras gymkhana has to say about industry….
and amongst these thoughts is the compulsion of thinking bout something i am really not bothered about , but which would eventually bother my later life.... and since we all want a secure later life.. i do it....
i like the red paint, the comfy chair, the Hermes fragrance, tandoori chicken, white sand beaches, sparkling fluids, smoke, glittering nights in cold streets, lying down on National Highway at 1:30 am, sand dunes, colourful glass beads, carnations, my blue room, but these things dont make my future life happy... sad... but they make my present moment best.. n worth living for....
so why is it that i m going against the present for an unseen future... being worried about things that i dont give a damn about....
with no other thought in hand, accept that we are stuck in this cycle called life and weirdass expectations from ourselves n become a slave of future needs and ignoring our present happiness....
Do normal human needs count before reason ? the desire of being one of those around you sometimes overpowers the force of reason. Then the world where you belong more, suddenly looks unrealistic and unimportant and the hope of being prominent in this world captures the mind. Reason reminds you to be happy n content with what you are and where you are, but how do I ignore the bent towards the other side. Maybe after a day or two I would again get back to same, but for these two days the thought process will indulge in this leading towards nowhere debate of to be or not to be.
But then I cant be one of those, the ones trying to fake themselves so the outer world would see what they are not, or may be what they are but what I am not, I cant be that. Just that I want to know if what seems unreal is actually so or my reality is virtual amongst those.
If my world is standing on the foundation of things which really matter or its just my belief which is superficial and floating on the shallow water. It’s the temptation of being on the other side, which looks brighter and happier, is it existent or just a mirage in this hopeless desert….