mystery or misery

it can play dirty .. so dirty at times that u ll never be able to feel better.... this is life, this is life for u... no matter how much u try to forget things but u ll never be able to , sometime somewhere each n every incident will be reminded and u ll be left alone with ur bleeding memories.
it bleeds and hurts from the inside to the outside cracking every nerve to drown u into the filth of pain... y do we get hurt and so hurt that the wounds never heal and u feel that u ll bleed to death...
thats where i m rite now...bleeding to death n i think even death would be better i m in this never ending nightmare which is testing me as harshly as it can .....